a chai went by

i'm unsure and unaffliated with marriage. signing the register is like signing a lease...for life. and this is 'love'? committing and promising and ring putting on and kissing in front of people you know. i don't understand how it makes life different. marriage is so abstract. however, so is 'love'. they're just words really. words we've attached these incomprehensible meanings to. real life disguised as fairy tales. am i missing something? or is something missing me?

1982

twenty eight is late night triple r's, pain killers, stemless wine glass, ohmygoodness balloons as big as me with air and answers. twenty eight is not great. it's plates of great. plates and plates of plates with cake. twenty eight is

linetimes

sometimes i feel so overwhelmed and uncomfortable with the flesh i carry. it's like walking around with alien-tissue lumps stuck all over myself.

in other news...
the bounce of ginger kicks with lemon
fizzles with the honey floozy
a brimming elixir
jettisons its fever

(this needs work)
ick.

plums. i'll never be tired of saying plums. plumplumplum. plump. lump. umpl.

serenading by hazard lights

today i doubt my compassion. and i worry i'm not drinking green tea. beetroot gives me rosy wee. and i can't help wondering if i was born into the wrong body...i feel more akin to the cnidaria and cephalopod families. there is no evidence there is someone 'out there' for everyone. people who say this are mawkish and i wanna spike them with hairdressing scissors. i'm not symmetrical enough. a smartie is approximately five calories.

cephalopods

cuttlefish are solitary animals.

they are attracted to bright colours.

mourning fresh

this morning my friend stuck a knife in my back...literally. a giant kitchen knife. just a scratch though. we hugged. i cried, in response to the stab and other 'feelings' like possible sunday twinge-heart...

the meteorology reflects it all: freezing but sunny.

no-one will ever read this...i don't think anyone reads this.






that's
ok

inaccuracy

just like saying chocolate makes me feel all velvet-ripple, saying EXAM is like filing the gums off my teeth...